For most of my life
I was told how to live
How to be
Not much room was given
For self discovery
Or soverignity
Rightness and wrongness
Based on the opinions of others
Their own fears their own need
Was given to me
Demanding I ingest
These foreign substances
Into my psyche
And in an innocent
and misguided attempt
To be accepted
To be loved and to belong
I followed the rules
I obeyed
And sacrificed my needs
I didn't really know
I was allowed to have needs
So I was always confused
When some said I was "needy."
So I hid all my feelings
What I needed even more
To be a "good girl"
To receive praise
And reward
For conforming
For hiding
So well
Written 6 February 2018
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